As you may have noticed I am blogging about health less and yes, part of that is because of my analytics (no one was reading my health posts/recipes) but to be honest there is so much more to it.
As you may know I lost over 50 lbs after my last 2 pregnancies (70lbs after my second baby and 50lbs after the third). One of my goals with this blog was to present health info and help inspire people in a more down to earth way than what you usually find out there. But I can’t help but feel like the health niche can just be so toxic that I don’t want to be seen as part of the problem. There can be a really fine line between inspiring and presenting some unrealistic bullshit.
I get like like 5 DMs a week asking to join Beachbody teams or whatever. I am fiercely opposed to profiting off the weight loss struggles of others. I tried coaching and meal planning but I couldn’t do it. I want everyone to find their own health… free of charge. That being said I don’t judge anyone else for doing it it just didn’t feel like it was for me.
As someone who struggled with food issues in the past I realized that I can’t put myself out there and have this pressure to be thin. My success with losing weight came from turning just those messages off within my own brain and heart. I need to give a fuck about myself holistically, and with grace.
I am on a mission to accept myself and yes I am thrilled to be healthier but ultimately I think of maybe someone out there getting a brief snapshot of my journey with toxic hashtags feeling like shit and it makes my heart cringe.
What if I gain it back too? Then what?? I’m already a bit heavier than I was when I started this blog and I really need my weight not to be associated with my worth in a public arena.
Anyways I just felt the urge to explain a little. This blog has changed so much along the way that I’m sure my readers have trouble keeping up! But the truth is I just love telling dumb jokes and eating good food and not taking things too seriously. Deep down inside we all have these things we secretly wish we could be but dare not speak of. The job titles that we long for but don’t allow ourselves to entertain for fear of failure. Mine are writer, comedian, artist.
I love anyone who takes the time to read my shit or follow me or who’s given me support. I am here to help anyone on their health journey too. I’ll still post about my weightloss/health journey but it will be less about outcomes and more about the process, NSVs etc. I might still show before and after pics because I truly am proud of myself.
I just wanted to explain why I’m not blogging about this as much. I am ultimately striving for body positivity and clear mental health before anything else ❤❤
If anyone needs me, I’ll just be over here gazing lovingly at green apples 🍏
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